Shall i carry on?

I don't feel myself, nor do I feel whole. That extra beat to my heart or a slight change in behaviour. This without a doubt,isn't the Melvin I used to know. . And I can't help but wonder why the change, why now? But every vein in me is denying that possible cause. .
But somehow, there's that slight whisper tinkling in my ear: Stop fooling yourself, you know why.
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Okay. .practically for the time being, all the horrendous projects and endless revision is doing my head in. .and all this poor time management of mine just makes things worse. Yet, I don't know how I'm still able to commit entirely to my activities and social life. Not saying I like being anti social or whatever, it's just with what I have to go through. .i should really be focusing rather than staying up late at night doing the usual non sense. .I haven't the slightest nervous feeling in me despite the fact everything's around the very corner. .This I do not understand.
And lately,it's as though my energy's draining from my system,literally of course. Sometimes, I just wish I owned a time machine, so time could be paused at my very will,allowing me to fit everything into my schedule. .Hahh =D