Chances

I love you

but it’s not so easy to make you here with me

But you’re still in my dream.

When you hold your love,

don’t ever let it go or you will loose your chance

to make your dreams come true.

I hope i have a chance to watch you from a distance and i knew you realized

I was looking for a time to get closer at least to say… “HELLO”

I never thought that I’m so strong cuz'

i had stuck on you and waited for so long.

I hoped that my dreams will come true (:

没什么大不了

我发现，

我已恢复自由者的身份。

是比预计的还快。

看来我有的还是青春，

而这一次，

我将我拥有的，

好好地挥霍。

告诉你，

我和你真的没什么大不了的。

像你说的，

"Don't take it so serious."

别见了

向她说的，
我们之间已无电交流，
只是浪费时间.

我们下不了的约定，
就当作没有计划过，
让它无声无味地消失吧.

这不是电影里，
铺成好的情节，
在故事的尾段，
我们过着幸福快乐的生活.

所以，
我们还是别见好了.

I tell myself : "No use crying over spilt milk. I just stop being sad and make my life awesome instead."

答案 Answer

那看似
像个听觉的答案，
是个有深度
和了解的感觉答案。
It's for your ears.
But yours to feel and understand.

你听到的，
使你哽咽。
可是，
你感觉到的，
是你落泪。
What you hear,
kills your breath.
But when you approach it,
it drains your tears.

心里的平衡，
是忐忑，
是黑暗。
Inner unbalance
is unstable and dark.

但你可否曾想过，
有答案的人，
早已无法哽咽
或落泪？
But have you ever thought that,
those with answers,
had stopped breathing,
and crying without tears?

有些答案，
就隔着，
让它自生自灭吧！
Some answers,
better let it be,
and never been told.

Get Over It

Days without you,

bring me back to normal.

Stop me from thinking,

that we are possible.

Your words had so much impact on me.

So much that I barely could breathe when we talked.

You said I'm naive, inexperienced.

And I admitted that, even now.

But in the end,

you are neither mature nor prepared.

Yes.

It is hard.

And we did try,

just that it's one of those fruitless turn-on.

认清事实

我告诉自己，

会离开你的人

是不珍惜你的人。

他要走，

就让他走。

或许这样你才能

辨认，

认清，

一些事实。

合不来，

谈不来，

分开始终是对的。

所以你别等了。

因为珍惜你的人，

在别处呢。

说不出的爱

在你面前、

隐藏不了我真实的懦弱、

打从心底说不出的爱、

怕说了会伤了你的心、

勇敢铁着心避开手机电脑、

尝试把强烈的感情吞下、

有时失败了就以自怜的方式、

给于自己跟多力量来等你、

思念你的夜里无奈无法失措、

因为爱你而你却沉默不过问、

想对你打个招呼、

又担心你会误解我的关心.

Nights

You know,

life suddenly becomes so boring

when you leave me. .

i try to catch you back,

try to retrieve those memories. .

line by line,

of what you've said to me. .

you every single smile,

there are very adorable. .

very...

time is all i need,

give me time,

then maybe possibility grows?

tons of thoughts

that kept inside of me,

i do not know when i can tell you. .

coz' you always turn me down,

switch me off. .

sometimes,

i think i put in too much effort,

trying to float above our problems. .

yes

i do admit. .

why you choose to leave. .

that big difference in both lives,

i know i can never chase you up. .

the gap,

is where we are lost in. .

you know,

every night,

i think. .

i think that maybe some other night

you can be right beside me.

coz' all i know for now is that,

you are the only one i can pour my love on. .

now i am here,

proving i can live on my own,

proving what i tell you of being a good student,

proving that i am not scared of this place i am in,

proving to you that when i see you again,

i am fully ready. .

to be honest,

everytime when i start to drink,

it just reminds me of you,

in the car,

with that face of disagreement. .

a bad boy,

you will say. .

there is one thing,

just very one thing

i will ponder for,

ever since that day of separation

do you think of me again?

nights

quiet nights,

winter comes,

soon snow follows. .

and when snow comes

can your smile warm my nights?

Hmmmm. . ?

Right. . . People have been buzzing me, saying why am I gone for so long and am I quiting this blog?

The answer is - NO! I am not quiting but resting coz' I do not know why after I got here, all my inspirations have gone and even if I did, it's all about how love could manipulate our feelings in different conditions rather than my recent updates. And negative comments too. . Sigh. . There is one thing about blogging my recent updates - too much pictures to upload. . But I think before that, I will change my blog header and footer with complete fresh look *I think* So yeah~ Give me some more time to prepare and start all over again with new ideas and new posts : )

Classic

What if Romeo did not die with Juliet?
What if Prince Charming did not find Cinderella?
What if Sleeping Beauty kept on sleeping?
What if Snow White was not kissed by the Prince?

... would the ending be different?

So hard that I finally got over someone that I got attracted, someone came in without knocking. . This one shared a lot of similarities to the previous one. . I got tired of figuring if I would treat it as a substitute coz' I was really afraid to lose hope again before I was ready for everything. .

Waiting,
is the most classic act. .

Juliet waited for Romeo. .
Cinderella waited for Prince Charming. .
Sleeping Beauty slept until Prince arrived. .
Snow White got saved by a kiss. .

They asked me to wait. . Wait. . Wait again. .
Coz' no one knew if this one was the one for me. .
Early. . They said too early. .
But wasn't that I could tell if this was the one?

Coz' after all,
I have become too vulnerable,
fearing what they said would come true. .

P.S. THIS IS THE TENSE CAUSE ME TO SHOP HEAVILY WITHOUT THINKING.

Ran Away

Don't stop.
Don't look back.
Just hold my hands tight.

Even we have no destination
just trust me.



Love
makes us give up what we have.

But is it worth?

No definite answer.

Can't Figure It Out

Yes. .
It is hard to accept a transaction
of Life. .

Everyday the same routine. . But it is a lot more free than Chung Hua. . I can still remember that everyday morning, sitting in Eric's class and talking to him 'bout how i feel day after day. .' It has been awhile and I can feel the distance is even longer and further from my friends. Hmmm. . .

On the first day, sitting outside the class waiting, even they are just in front of me, but we are still strangers. . But now i make some new friends like "Chau Ped Ped", Tangki, ChrisDog, Alton and "Techno Kid". . Seeing them chattering, it makes me miss my friends, those days of happiness. . Sigh. .

I do not expect to meet someone who is equivalent to them here though. . Coz' I know no matter what, those friends that I met in Chung Hua, are those who accompanied me through my primary school life. . Well, guys, I really miss you !!! Hope everything is fine. . And sorry that I am really busy with things now. .

Sigh. . .

This two days are very bored. . *SERIOUSLY*
Cuz *Somebody's handphone is run out of credit. .
Sigh. . Damn boring. .

Tomorrow i think i'll going to Parkson cuz it's the time to buy present. .
I've wasting too much time on those stupid tuition. .
This cause i didn't have the time to buy it. .

And today's football match was completely SUCKS!?!?
Don't even enter the semi-final match. . Wad the ****

Nevermind. . Just hope that tomorrow plan's will be fine as i think. : )

Rule, The.

It always feels like,
there's a rule,
manipulating this world. .

When you meet your love,
she is either
no interests in you,
or preoccupied. .

When someone confess to you,
telling you how important you are to him,
but you tell yourself,
you deserve better. .

Or,

two people fallen in deep love,
wanting to believe,
how perfectly suitable they are
for each other. .

Under the challenge of time,
interests die,
perfection fades. .
And love wears out. .

In the end,
either the situation of,
I love You, You love Him. .
We are still alone,
facing and dealing with this rule of nature. .

Solo

I used to play it all by myself.

Until I learn about something called 'Companionship'.

Too bad for now,
Coz' I will have to carry on all by myself now.

Happy Endings

Everyone in this world wishes to have a happy ending for their lives. .
However, some do not have happy endings. .

But is that what kind of ending so important? Or God just want to make it interesting for people to ask?

Coz' happy endings are so predictable and boring. .

While I never want a happy ending coz' I like the taste of tears. .

Fading

There are impatient times,
where I would rather just stick to someone randomly. .

So please tell me that it is all worth waiting for. .
So please assure me that it's the correct one that would come. .

So that,
I would know where to find my security. .

Please talk to me and do not let me feel sad inside. .
Will you?

Fallen Asleep

不知不觉
发现自己
已不像以前那么有耐心了。

等着等着. .

在没有你的怀里，
睡着了. .

可能是因为
害怕接受没有你的事实，

所以才逼自己
到梦里寻找
属于自己的你。

English Version:

Unknowingly,
realised that
I was no longer that patient anymore. .

Waiting. . .

and fall asleep
without your presence. .

Maybe because
I scared to admit
the fact that you're gone,

and forced myself
to find my only you
in my dreams. .

False Alarm

I felt vibrations
at my fingers. .

*Maybe is you ! ! !

Quickly,
grabbed my phone
from my pocket. .

*Aww. . .*
It's an advertisement message. .

Now you know how much
you are to me right?

So
CALL ME OR MESSAGE ME
your spontaneous way
coz' I like it. .

Gosh,
it's a false alarm. .

Forest Gump

It's been awhile since I've been emotionally touched by a movie I'd randomly see. Have you ever heard of a movie by Tom Hanks with the title of this post?

Forest Gump. . A beautiful, unique piece of work. . Such fine actors and actresses accompanied by a spectacular storyline, amazed and touched every inch of my soul. . It did. . By the way, sent shivers down my spine. I wish I was more like Forest, innocent and never strays away too far from what he's supposed to think. . Then I realized that no matter how much you've gained in life, thought on the surface you'd portray happiness, deep down in your little tiny heart you're never satisfied. . Humans - we're never satisfied with what we have. .It's just the way we are. .

If someone wasn't selfish enough, nobody would be labelled as "too poor". If someone could have just gave something, they wouldn't even have to come up with the word "war". . If somebody could have lent a helping hand, then nobody would be feeling a little "lost"...

I couldn't see the outline of my life. . I've got big dreams but nothing to reach them..*yet* Because I'm such a liar that I feel scared to believe that I could do it. . What if everything I've ever wanted to do just turned out as a big fat lie to myself? What if I was thrown out by my own dreams and fell into some place where nobody could save me and not even myself?

I hope things would turn out as they should, and I hope the world will always spin around in a circle. . Cos if it would spin in complicated ways and turned all topsy turvey, I sure don't want to be the first to fall. .

If you haven't watched this, please do search for it. . I can tell you that it's worth while. . Give yourself some brain washing sessions and I do hope things would work out for you. .

The Random One

I sit alone and watch at the clock. .
Trying to collect my thoughts. .
All I think about is you. .
And so I cry myself to sleep. .
Hoping the devil don't meet me in the dreams that I live through. .

All the smiles you've had to fake. .
And all the bullshit you've had to take. .
I never have the things to say. .
To make it all just go away. .

Believe in me. .
You know i waited for so long. . P.S