Nights

You know,

life suddenly becomes so boring

when you leave me. .

i try to catch you back,

try to retrieve those memories. .

line by line,

of what you've said to me. .

you every single smile,

there are very adorable. .

very...

time is all i need,

give me time,

then maybe possibility grows?

tons of thoughts

that kept inside of me,

i do not know when i can tell you. .

coz' you always turn me down,

switch me off. .

sometimes,

i think i put in too much effort,

trying to float above our problems. .

yes

i do admit. .

why you choose to leave. .

that big difference in both lives,

i know i can never chase you up. .

the gap,

is where we are lost in. .

you know,

every night,

i think. .

i think that maybe some other night

you can be right beside me.

coz' all i know for now is that,

you are the only one i can pour my love on. .

now i am here,

proving i can live on my own,

proving what i tell you of being a good student,

proving that i am not scared of this place i am in,

proving to you that when i see you again,

i am fully ready. .

to be honest,

everytime when i start to drink,

it just reminds me of you,

in the car,

with that face of disagreement. .

a bad boy,

you will say. .

there is one thing,

just very one thing

i will ponder for,

ever since that day of separation

do you think of me again?

nights

quiet nights,

winter comes,

soon snow follows. .

and when snow comes

can your smile warm my nights?

Ran Away

Don't stop.
Don't look back.
Just hold my hands tight.

Even we have no destination
just trust me.



Love
makes us give up what we have.

But is it worth?

No definite answer.

To Someone. .

Every time I think of you,
there is a sudden period of happiness. .
From the first sight I caught of you. .


Somehow,
I knew that you are someone
who will own part of my heart. .
There are feelings I cannot explain,
no matter how hard I try. .


If I were to say 'I Need You',
am I too selfish and childish?
If I were to say "I Love You',
am I too silly and naive?

Me : "Wine, get me some now. ."

To distract my affection on you. .
To stray away my thoughts of you. .
To let me wake up in the morning without imagining you beside me. .
To not having me to think where you are whenever i need you. .
They are between 'Need' and 'Love'. . *SERIOUSLY*

So uncertain and surreal. .
But I really need to clear it out now. .

And move on. .

What's Wrong With Me?

Honestly!?
I don't know what's happening to me. .

I can't think right,
I can't eat right,
I can't walk right,
I can't feel right too. .

I don't know what's wrong with me. .
I keep getting headaches. .
I also keep receiving messages in forms of dreams or thoughts that I'm dying. .
Am I Thinking too much or is my end just near?
I feel feverish at times and I feel hot even when It's get cold. .

I don't know what I'm saying at times,
And everything is just a blur. . *mumbling*

I can't feel anything at times,
And yet, sometimes. .i feel so much pain, misery && stress. .

One second I feel Happy High And Crazy,
And another, I feel Sad, Depressed And Quiet. . PS