Nights

You know,

life suddenly becomes so boring

when you leave me. .

i try to catch you back,

try to retrieve those memories. .

line by line,

of what you've said to me. .

you every single smile,

there are very adorable. .

very...

time is all i need,

give me time,

then maybe possibility grows?

tons of thoughts

that kept inside of me,

i do not know when i can tell you. .

coz' you always turn me down,

switch me off. .

sometimes,

i think i put in too much effort,

trying to float above our problems. .

yes

i do admit. .

why you choose to leave. .

that big difference in both lives,

i know i can never chase you up. .

the gap,

is where we are lost in. .

you know,

every night,

i think. .

i think that maybe some other night

you can be right beside me.

coz' all i know for now is that,

you are the only one i can pour my love on. .

now i am here,

proving i can live on my own,

proving what i tell you of being a good student,

proving that i am not scared of this place i am in,

proving to you that when i see you again,

i am fully ready. .

to be honest,

everytime when i start to drink,

it just reminds me of you,

in the car,

with that face of disagreement. .

a bad boy,

you will say. .

there is one thing,

just very one thing

i will ponder for,

ever since that day of separation

do you think of me again?

nights

quiet nights,

winter comes,

soon snow follows. .

and when snow comes

can your smile warm my nights?

Classic

What if Romeo did not die with Juliet?
What if Prince Charming did not find Cinderella?
What if Sleeping Beauty kept on sleeping?
What if Snow White was not kissed by the Prince?

... would the ending be different?

So hard that I finally got over someone that I got attracted, someone came in without knocking. . This one shared a lot of similarities to the previous one. . I got tired of figuring if I would treat it as a substitute coz' I was really afraid to lose hope again before I was ready for everything. .

Waiting,
is the most classic act. .

Juliet waited for Romeo. .
Cinderella waited for Prince Charming. .
Sleeping Beauty slept until Prince arrived. .
Snow White got saved by a kiss. .

They asked me to wait. . Wait. . Wait again. .
Coz' no one knew if this one was the one for me. .
Early. . They said too early. .
But wasn't that I could tell if this was the one?

Coz' after all,
I have become too vulnerable,
fearing what they said would come true. .

P.S. THIS IS THE TENSE CAUSE ME TO SHOP HEAVILY WITHOUT THINKING.

Can't Figure It Out

Yes. .
It is hard to accept a transaction
of Life. .

Everyday the same routine. . But it is a lot more free than Chung Hua. . I can still remember that everyday morning, sitting in Eric's class and talking to him 'bout how i feel day after day. .' It has been awhile and I can feel the distance is even longer and further from my friends. Hmmm. . .

On the first day, sitting outside the class waiting, even they are just in front of me, but we are still strangers. . But now i make some new friends like "Chau Ped Ped", Tangki, ChrisDog, Alton and "Techno Kid". . Seeing them chattering, it makes me miss my friends, those days of happiness. . Sigh. .

I do not expect to meet someone who is equivalent to them here though. . Coz' I know no matter what, those friends that I met in Chung Hua, are those who accompanied me through my primary school life. . Well, guys, I really miss you !!! Hope everything is fine. . And sorry that I am really busy with things now. .

Sigh. . .

This two days are very bored. . *SERIOUSLY*
Cuz *Somebody's handphone is run out of credit. .
Sigh. . Damn boring. .

Tomorrow i think i'll going to Parkson cuz it's the time to buy present. .
I've wasting too much time on those stupid tuition. .
This cause i didn't have the time to buy it. .

And today's football match was completely SUCKS!?!?
Don't even enter the semi-final match. . Wad the ****

Nevermind. . Just hope that tomorrow plan's will be fine as i think. : )

Happy Endings

Everyone in this world wishes to have a happy ending for their lives. .
However, some do not have happy endings. .

But is that what kind of ending so important? Or God just want to make it interesting for people to ask?

Coz' happy endings are so predictable and boring. .

While I never want a happy ending coz' I like the taste of tears. .

To Someone. .

Every time I think of you,
there is a sudden period of happiness. .
From the first sight I caught of you. .


Somehow,
I knew that you are someone
who will own part of my heart. .
There are feelings I cannot explain,
no matter how hard I try. .


If I were to say 'I Need You',
am I too selfish and childish?
If I were to say "I Love You',
am I too silly and naive?

Me : "Wine, get me some now. ."

To distract my affection on you. .
To stray away my thoughts of you. .
To let me wake up in the morning without imagining you beside me. .
To not having me to think where you are whenever i need you. .
They are between 'Need' and 'Love'. . *SERIOUSLY*

So uncertain and surreal. .
But I really need to clear it out now. .

And move on. .